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[reneger]

i'm not sorry

( for the almost but not quite fight. but he's communicating which counts for something, doesn't it. )

[forceforlight]

[Dick's been keeping his distance. Because he knows Jason needed time to deal with shit in his own way. And Dick? Well, Dick's not good at being the emotional punching bag. Not without getting angry in return.]

I know. And it's fine.

[Communication is key, after all. And Jason reaching out is good.]

[reneger]

( it's not fine. but jason still isn't sorry, because he doesn't feel like he was wrong. it's not all on dick, jason does know that. he knows he was an asshole, he hurt people, hurt dick when he came back, but he also knows excuses were made for damian and tim's shit moves, leeway was given for them, but wasn't given for him. he was ostracized, left on his own, while the others at least. . tried with each other. and by the time dick had offered jason a hand, it felt like it had been far too late.

he doesn't know how to put that into words. doesn't think it'd be useful, anyway, because they're years past all of it and nothing they say now is going to change the past. so he uses a different tactic. )

there wasn't anyone around i could ask for help before
i'm still figuring out how to

[forceforlight]

[It's not like Dick doesn't know he shares a good amount of responsibility for how things went. Part of the problem is that he can acknowledge that he has limits sometimes. What Jason needed, more than a few times, was well beyond what Dick could do.]

[It's hard to offer a hand when you're still juggling other people's problems.]

I should have been. I'm sorry I wasn't. I'm trying to be better about it now.

I will do everything I can to help you out. I just need to figure out when I need to be more proactive because not everybody is comfortable asking when they need help.

[reneger]

i meant before that

( before he'd even been taken under bruce's wing. before he'd been robin. hell, dick's phone number and bruce's support was the most support he'd gotten - as far as he can remember. his mom tried, but she could only do much in her condition. jason learned not to ask for help, he learned to be independent. that independence and inability to lean on others is one of the biggest factors of why he'd fucked off and gotten himself killed, as far as jason's concerned.

and part of why he'd gotten himself in deep shit when he'd come back. why he got himself so fucked over. why when dick had offered jason his hand, jason had pushed it away. )

i know i'm not alone now
that i can ask if i need it

[forceforlight]

[It takes a few minutes before there's a reply. It comes up with 'typing...' a few times before it stops.]

[Dick's not always great with words, but he wants to be.]

Are you in Central right now? No, wait, you're in New York, aren't you?

I owe you a hug next time you're in town.

[reneger]

still living in central

( so he is in central city, not in new york. and is generally in town. )

but i'm not a kid

[forceforlight]

Since when do you need to be a kid to get a hug?

[reneger]

since forever

[forceforlight]

Sounds fake.

[reneger]

you sound fake

[forceforlight]

I'll add a noogie if it makes you feel better.

[reneger]

touch my hair and i'll bleach yours

[forceforlight]

I think I'd look okay with white hair for a while.

[reneger]

i hate that i know you could pull it off